we're not still 12, are we?

Things are just so weird lately. I'm sick of being pissy and pissed at everyone, but sometimes it just can't be helped.

Like when your best friend in the whole entire world plans a trip to Vegas to celebrate her birthday, and doesn't even invite you. Doesn't even fucking mention it.

I heard it from her brother, who was inviting people right in front of me, saying, "Yeah! Everyone's going!" I suppose he figured I knew about the trip and was planning on coming.

Well, I thought, perhaps my best friend just wants to spend the weekend with her boyfriend. But.... then why is "everyone" coming ('cept me)? Not to mention, she and said boyfriend are in Vegas RIGHT NOW for the weekend. Going to a wedding, and they're staying in a fancy room in the Paris Hotel all alone. She needs two weekends in Vegas this month just with him??

Whatever. I would understand. I would be okay if she at least TOLD ME. Just told me her boyfriend was taking her to Vegas for her birthday. But, no. She's planning a big trip with everyone, apparently, and doesn't even fucking mention it to me. Is she planning on pretending she's sick when I call her on her birthday?

This is so retarded. Ever since Kelli moved back home, and *especially* since she started seeing this guy, she's been really fucking secretive with me. What am I supposed to do?

Everyone else I call my "friend" has just always been bitchy or weird with me. I never thought I'd get this kind of cold shoulder shit from Kelli.

Maybe I'm just a huge fucking loser and everyone's just mean to me so I'll stop hanging out with them forever.

Maybe some wishes are about to be granted. I have fucking had it with this junior-high bullshit.