the announcement

It has been over a year since I last wrote in here! Aauuurgh! I suck.

To catch up regarding my last entry: YES, I got that job! I think I ended up giving the bookstore only 1 weeks' notice... I LOVE my new job. I was promoted about 5 months after I started and my schedule improved, so I get PLENTY of time with the boy. Speaking of which...

We are engaged! He proposed in May, and we're getting married in February. Planning a wedding is a giant pain in the butt and I have been tempted on many occasions to just say "fuck this" and take him down to the courthouse, just to get it done with! Instead of doing that, though, we've decided to downsize (big time). What we WERE planning was a big wedding with all the goodies (DJ, pro photographer, about 100 guests, even a photobooth). What we've decided to do instead is have a small wedding (about 30 people) and a simple dinner reception afterward (no pro photographer, no DJ, no photobooth). Part of me is a little sad that I won't be dancing at my wedding, that I won't see all the friends and family back home whom I'd been looking SO forward to seeing again... But with the current economic climate and my mom being unemployed, I just couldn't bring myself to let my parents pay for a big wedding.

I've been struggling with jealousy...my sister had a huge, super fun wedding. Like I said, it just makes me sad that I won't have a wedding with dancing and friends. I keep reminding myself I'm doing the right thing, but it's hard not to feel resentful about that sometimes. :) Mostly, I just want to marry David. Gotta keep my eye on the prize, not the packaging. :)

So, that's what's new! I am 99% sure nobody reads this thing anymore, but ah well, I'm still putting it out there. You know, I've been so stressed out lately that I'm thinking going back to writing in this thing every day would probably be very good for me... Hmm, we'll see!